When your world is falling apart- seek a friend

My Publisher dropped me.

Wow.  I can’t believe I’m actually saying that.  I never thought I’d find myself in such a predicament but it’s true.

I found out the horrific news yesterday.  My publisher has narrowed its genres and what it will take based on what sells and sadly it’s everything I don’t write.

I write M/F Paranormal Erotic Romance and now I need to start the whole search process again for a new Publisher.  Either that or consider self-publishing; however, upon reviewing formatting requirements just to publish on Amazon, I looked at the paperwork, completely dumbfounded.  There are so many formatting requirements for self-publishing that I can’t imagine anyone actually does this.  I applaud those who do because I could actually feel my eyes rolling into the back of my head when I read everything I needed to do just to publish a book on my own.  Wow.

So, after one full day and going on another- of bouts of crying and bursting into full blown tears, I have come to accept my “rejection” status and am slowly seeking another home for my books.  I just sent my latest MS -which was under contract but is no longer being published due to the new rules- to a Publisher thirty minutes ago.  Keeping my fingers and toes crossed at this point.  I will be searching for more, entering into the tedious arena of seeking representation for not only this book but hopefully all my books, forever more.  Because going through what I’m going through now is not fun and I don’t want to experience this ever again.  It is downright scary to know you have no one to publish your books anymore and all because I want to write a beautiful, loving story that people will remember and not something that will make big bucks and big sales at the moment.  The interesting part is those types of stories may make instant money but they might not leave much of an impression on readers after the hedonistic fantasy is over with.

So, amidst all this personal chaos comes my friend and guru Michael, right in the nick of time.  He reminded me several days ago that he is with me “every step of the way”and now he is asking me not to cry, telling me this is all for a purpose and that the outcome is in my best interest.  The first emotion running through me when I received the devastating news was that I was all alone in a never ending blizzard, but because he’s such a good friend and he cares, he is reminding me that I am not alone and he is in it with me.

So when you go through chaos, as we all do at some point in our life, reach out for a friend, allow someone to hold you, remind you of your strength and don’t stop-keep going.  There are setbacks, yes, and it sucks.  What I’m going through I consider a challenge and a test but I will survive it even if I have to truly consider self-publishing.

Either way my next book, Apollo, The Guardian League, Book 3 will be published.  It will likely not be this year as my publisher projected and I had hoped but it will be at the right time and with the right Publisher.




4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Cherri-Anne Boitson
    Aug 25, 2016 @ 19:19:35

    OMG! This is HORRIBLE! I cried when I read the email!! (I subscribe to your blog) I am sooooo very sorry to hear this, but I do have one thing to say – I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE that you write the books YOU want to write & read and not what the current trend is! I find it so frustrating when authors “chase the money” and write books for the trend, and reading & reviewing all of the books I do, I have also noticed that those “other” books are not as great or as fulfilling and definitely do NOT have the same quality and attraction to their stories! And they are usually short books, or those dreaded (to me) serials! Of course, I curse the publishers for this as well because they are catering to the lower quality books instead of the great books that are worth reading over and over and over again… So I LOUDLY APPLAUD you for writing your own books your own way, and I just know that you will get picked up soon! HUGS to you!!!!

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  2. Shawn
    Aug 25, 2016 @ 20:18:55

    Keep you chin up girlie! Everything happens for a reason and this one blows but hopefully something much bigger and better is around the corner ❤️❤️❤️… You know we’re with you on this journey as hard it may be! So take a breath stand back a bit, pick up the pieces and get to work ❤️❤️❤️…. If I hear of anything u know I’ll pass on the info 😍



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